koopmicter
11-28-2006, 12:26 AM
Its kinda of embarrasing saying it but i feel like i have a million things bottled up inside of me and i need to let them out somewhere. one thing is girls, and why no one ever likes me. im 17 and i live in a smaller city in canada ontario. i always work i own my own vehicle i go to the gym and im always there to help out friends. while in groups of people and girls and what not im always the comedian and make everyone laugh and have a great time but it seems as if the same people always get the girls becuase there more attractive then me. embarrasing as it is being joked about with my friends about being a virgin but ive never even kissed a girl. like an actual she wants a kiss and i want to give it to her kind thats ment. im nice and i try care a lot for everyone. no one seems to care about me and i feel like when im older and people have all these storys about high school and how they had a blast and different sorts of girls they have been with im not going to have any to tell .. i just wish a girl could see me and notice how i would treat her ..like a princess. i hate how today people look at me a just a kid thats a bit chuby and not super hot so i stand no chance .. im just there to make them laugh and help them in class .. why did god make 2 baskets and throw me into the one that was labelled low metablilizim. i feel sometimes like i just want to run away just get into my car and drive till i run out of gas and sometimes i feel that i just cant go on and as shame ful as it is i break down and cry wishing to be different. its hard for me to think ill never get a girl friend and have fun .. like i wouldnt even want sex i just want enjoy the times and be able to talk to someone. i dont want to be older and not have kids .. im sorry to who ever is reading this its just i neede to get this off my chest .. if anyone out there can tell me something to cheer me up or an answer why people treat me this way please tell me .. any sort of comment will help